16 7 / 2012
07 7 / 2012
Resisted the siren call of ice cream and french friends, or pancakes and hash browns and ice cream from McDonalds. I backslid a bit and had two waffles but hey, seriously far less calories.
Considering it a major victory!
26 6 / 2012
145: BREAK 150lbs!!!
138: BREAK 140lbs!!
135: FINAL 10!
131: Break weight from when in Paris.
127lbs: ULTIMATE GOAL WEIGHT
June 24th: 151.5lbs
June 26th: 150.8lbs
30 5 / 2012
braa- brother, braddah
chi-chi man: gay guy
champion: woman of sexual prowess
09 5 / 2012
It seems simple enough. Successful people just seem to have a better time of things and luck just happens to find them. Whenever a major failure hits though, that tends to mark a downhill slope to a worser period of time.
At least, that’s how life is for me.
When considering why I continue to stagnate and then suddenly have rapid weight loss, stagnate, and then weight gain, it’s purely from these set of events. I get motivated to do something, I see results, then I don’t, then I give up a little, then I see negative results, I give up, I gain weight, I stagnate, I get motivated again but not as much.
So, with resetting everything. I stagnated. I reset. I lost two pounds. I stagnated. I put it back on.
How infuriating to be so predictable!
Having things to mark my day is how I plan on stopping the stagNation. If I can focus on having a routine, then even on non-busy days I won’t occupy myself with eating food and watching Korean dramas- which are getting more unappealing by the episode. Focusing on gaining knowledge in my field, experience for my resume, and expanding my relationships with family and friends should make it impossible to do nothing.
Alright. Tea’s ready.
06 5 / 2012
05 5 / 2012
Falling to sleep standing in place. went out last night to see 5 yr engagement with my roommate and friends. several hours later and an awesome potluck dinner later, at 2am clambered into bed to moan at 6:30 and drive 2 hrs to see my dad for his birthday and tennis match.
Next up! 3 hr drive to Pennsylvania to see my aunt, spend the night an drive back in the morning for another late night movie, the avengers.
This weekend is all for the people I love and decent theatre.
05 5 / 2012
How the hell do you know when you’ve met THE ONE? When you kiss some other person and can only think of the other?
I’ve been in one long term relationship where mutually proclaimments of love were said and I know what it’s like to not think about anyone else. To not love anyone else. But then when it’s over. When the pain is gone. When the emptiness is no longer such a void and you begin to look at others.. How can you trust in love? it took me two years to fully get over my ex but, how can you say you love someone with such passion when that feeling can be overturned by time?
I want fireworks. I want heel popping. I’ve kissed plenty of guys. Been on many dates but never felt anything beyond what I felt like with him and I don’t even know if it was that great.